We lost our baby at 10 weeks :-(

Well I have bad news. I went in for my 10 week ultrasound on 8/28/07 and the baby's heart had stopped beating. It measured about 8 weeks and 5 days and had started folding in on itself. The DR said it died about a week before the ultrasound. We of course are a complete mess. Nate's been more worried about myself and Nick and Nick's sad of course but doing a wonderful job of supporting me and making sure I'm ok. My DR said that it was nothing I did or didn't do and that there was something chromosomally wrong with it since it was this far along after the heart was beating. She said it happens a lot with poor egg quality - which I've had issues with. I went in for a D&E on Thursday (8/30/07). It was horrible emotionally but physically it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. They just made me into a zombie for 2 days with all the anti-nausea meds they shoved in me. I just can't even believe this is happening. I keep hoping I'll wake up from this nightmare. They weren't able to testing on our baby because it had been "gone" for too long which in my opinion sucks because I really would have liked answers on what had gone wrong. Our DR (RE) has been great and is getting us started right up with FET. She said it will take about 6 weeks to get my period after the D&E and then we'll jump right into a FET (frozen embryo transfer) cycle. That sounds wonderful to me. Get right back into it will be best I think. We have 5 frozen embryos to work with. She said they were all very qood quality and it sounds like we have every reason to believe that we can have a healthy baby out of that batch. We'll see how things go and play it by ear to see how far we'll be able to go. I was really hoping that it would turn out differently. We'll just focus on trying again. It just sucks. Rest in peace my little one :-(
Here is the Memorial I finally was able to do for our baby (did this about 2 weeks after we lost it...it's been tough) I found this poem on the internet but not who wrote it. It really spoke to me.




Pictures of what my wonderful husband got me: