A new beginning....

Happy March 1st everyone! The start of a new month. The start of a good month. Yesterday I had a quick thought that I was due to have a baby this month. I then told myself (and my sister who I was talking to) that March wasn't really that baby's due date. We spent 10 glorious weeks together (well 8 really) and we cherished our time. We found out on August 28th that we had to say goodbye. It broke our hearts and we took our time mourning and saying our goodbyes in the "physical" world. I still say good morning and good night to our baby every day. I tell it that I love it every day. It will forever be in our hearts. Instead of thinking of what could have been this month - I am thinking of what IS and what WILL be. I will always have that baby close to me but I am letting go of past hurt and sadness and looking at the here and now and seeing a bright future. It feels good. This morning I was trying to recall the side effects of the IVF drugs I took so I read through my blog. I continued to read and felt very sad. I almost stopped but for some reason I continued on. I realized how far I've come in the past 9 months. I'm a more positive person now. I am a less stressed out person. I think I'm a healthier person. I believe that every step I've had to go through has brought me to a better place. I truly believe that no matter what happens I will be ok. I feel very positive that we will have our baby or babies and I do feel positive this time will work. I do know that if it doesn't, I will be ok. Anyway - just insight into my brain on a beautiful day. March 1st 2008 is supposed to be the best day yet weather wise. I feel really good about this month bringing some good results. I suppose I better get off the computer and get started on my day. I've promised my dogs a bath today and since there are 3 very large dogs (who think they're humans) anxiously awaiting their turn in the bathtub I'd better get started. ;-) I added a new poll today. I'm quite certain that I'm going to be putting back 3 embryos this time around. I'd like to get other people's views as well though. I put 2 back last time and we all know what happened there. I originally wanted 3 that time as well but my Doc convinced me to do 2. I've read a lot of other people's posts about putting back 4 and only getting 1 or none. I'm just trying to get an idea of where other people stand on that dilemna. :-) Thanks in advance for your opinions!!!