The Power of Positive Thinking....

I am on day 5 of being grumpy and in a lowsy pity-party mood. I am off work today and what better way to start a good day than not having to go to work, right!?? My goal today is to get myself thinking more positively and be in better spirits. Plan of action:

#1 - Do Yoga - the long one...the Anxiety one...it's 40-50 minutes so I haven't had enough time to do it yet. Today I think I really need to make time.

#2 - Clean the house - not much fun but satisfying when complete

#3 - Go pick up my IVF meds - I turned in the prescriptions yesterday and they should be ready by noon. I'll pick those up and make a nice spreadsheet for the upcoming cycle. Maybe focusing on getting ready for that will help.

#4 - Relax and try to remember what Nick asked me to do today. I have a feeling I'll have to call him because I've just been in my own sad little world so far. Anything that could have been crappy this week has definitely happened. Now that it's all happened - time to move on.

I'm trying to think positively and trying to think of things to get me through Christmas and all the happy people. I know - I'm so bitter. SO I close my eyes and try to imagine something that makes me feel good. Well - if we are successful this time, our baby's due date will be Oct. 3rd (ish) and for twins Sept. 12 (ish). Fall is our favorite season. What better time to bring our child or children into the world! SO - I am picturing going on a walk with our little one(s). Pushing the stroller, admiring the beautiful fall leaves. The mild breeze on our faces. The sounds of a soft wind rustling the leaves. OK - that is the one! That is the image that will be my salvation through all this. It just relaxed me in an instant. Whenever I get to a tough moment I'm just going to close my eyes and picture that instead of being sad about what we lost and what we could have had. I'm going to picture what we WILL have (I hope!). The power of positive thinking right?! SO for this wonderful holiday season that I am oh so bitter about I'm going to have Visions of Babies Dancing in my head (opposed to the damn Sugar Plums!!). ;-)